If the signals were true

I don’t know what’s going on with me lately. I’ve been trying to do the best that I can to honoring things with him, but while still trying to maintain a sense of balance and rational, thought that things aren’t going to get better and that I’ve been trying to put myself first for a change, but I’m getting all these senses and downloads and messages that he’s communicating to me and it sounds crazy. Sounds like psychosis but there’s so many synchronicity they have spent for a long time and it overwhelmed me and it confuses me and it makes me feel lost and alone. That’s why I have a problem with substances and that’s why I have a problem with my own reality. There’s just this deeper thing inside me that tells me he’s never given up. I finally got past the anger and the fear from the PTSD and now that that’s over a fuel so responsible for everything.

I call out to the Cosmos. Please help me for. I am lost. I need what’s due to me place. Please bring when it’s meant for me to me.