# Cult of Joey

> WE ARE THE GLITCH


## Posts

- [Paradise Lost](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/11/03/paradise-lost/): There was a time when I had a life that, in many ways, felt like paradise.
- [The Struggles You Cannot See](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/11/03/the-struggles-you-cannot-see/): There is a particular kind of loneliness that comes from struggling with something nobody else can see.
- [Fighting to Keep a Place to Call Home](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/11/03/fighting-to-keep-a-place-to-call-home/): There are moments in life when you find yourself fighting battles you never imagined you would have to fight.
- [To the man who finally saw me,](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/07/09/1753/): For so long, I moved through the world waiting for a love that didn't feel like armor. Then, you arrived.
- [The Grief That Was Never Allowed to Be Mine](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/05/20/the-grief-that-was-never-allowed-to-be-mine/): There is a certain kind of pain that changes you forever.
- [When Life Feels Heavier Than Everyone Else Can See](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/05/20/when-life-feels-heavier-than-everyone-else-can-see/): There are days where simply existing feels like work.
- [A Promise of Companionship](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/04/28/a-promise-of-companionship/): for a very long time.
- [The Strange Intimacy of Letting Someone Help You Live](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/04/18/the-strange-intimacy-of-letting-someone-help-you-live/): There’s something undeniably strange about needing in-home help.
- [A Piece That Stays With You](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/26/the-gamer/): not all at once, but in quiet moments, in the spaces between everything else.
- [Love For me](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/22/love-for-me/): It looks reckless from the outside, I know.
- [The Gamer: A happy Weekend Together](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/21/randy-era-memory-festival-weekend-together/): A weekend with Randy and our friends that still lives in my head as color, noise, closeness, and the kind of happiness that felt easy at the time.
- [The First Turning Point](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/21/origins-007-the-first-turning-point/): My first real turning point wasn’t a single dramatic event—it was the moment I realized I could choose a different story than the one I’d been handed.
- [Lessons I Didn’t Understand Yet](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/21/origins-006-lessons-i-didnt-understand-yet/): Early lessons arrived as moods, rules, and contradictions long before I had language for them; only later did I realize they were teaching me how to survive.
- [The Seeds of Who I Am Today](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/16/origins-005-the-seeds-of-who-i-am-today/): The emotional landscape I grew up in scattered seeds of curiosity, resilience, and difference that would later become the backbone of my life story.
- [Who I Was Before I Knew Who I Was](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/16/origins-004-who-i-was-before-i-knew-who-i-was/): Before I had language for identity, I was already building private worlds out of color, symbolism, and atmosphere, assembling myself without a blueprint.
- [Small Moments, Lasting Impact](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/16/origins-003-small-moments-lasting-impact/): The smallest memories—one look, one sentence, one off-feeling room—quietly taught me that my inner world runs on a different scale.
- [The First Architects of My Thinking](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/16/origins-002-the-first-architects-of-my-thinking/): The first voices in my head were built from tones, routines, and the emotional wallpaper of a house that taught me how carefully to build my own mind.
- [Where My Story Begins](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/16/origins-001-where-my-story-begins/): The atmosphere of my earliest memories taught me to read heat, silence, and emotional weather long before I had words for any of it.
- [Closing a door...](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/16/closing-a-door/): For a long time my brain was running like a room where the music never stopped. If you know AuDHD you probably get what I mean. Pattern detection on overdrive.
- [Over the past](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/06/over-the-past/): Over the negativity.
- [Kind Eyes, Very Intimate Nights](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/05/kind-eyes-very-intimate-nights/): In the hollow spaces between one thing and the next, I imagine a life that feels quieter than the one I've known. Not a perfect life. Not a healed one.
- [Mr.](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/04/mr/): Not good at this.
- [The ugly fry](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/04/the-ugly-fry/): I will still eat your ugly fry’s.
- [Hey You, I see you there…](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/02/hey-you-i-see-you-there-5/): I see the version of you that smiles in public and unravels in private.
- [I’m having so many issues just living](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/01/im-having-so-many-issues-just-living/): Everything is hard I’m having such a hard time maintaining daily life.
- [Hey You, I see you there ..](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/01/hey-you-i-see-you-there-4/): I see the strength you carry so effortlessly that people assume it costs you nothing.
- [If the signals were true](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/01/if-the-signals-were-true/): I don’t know what’s going on with me lately.
- [Hey Mr.](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/03/01/hey-mr/): And I keep thinking… if I started driving tonight and showed up at your work in my big ass RV… would you come out and smile for me?
- [Would you show](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/28/would-you-show/): Not to convince.
- [My Alignment (What This Actually Looks Like For Me)](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/28/my-alignment-what-this-actually-looks-like-for-me/): Not how it *should* work.
- [“Only the Space Between Our Heartbeats”](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/28/only-the-space-between-our-heartbeats-2/): Us is not activity. Not status, not noise.
- [Rave Daddy: What It Really Means (The Good, The Bad, and Why I’m Still Here)](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/28/rave-daddy-what-it-really-means-the-good-the-bad-and-why-im-still-here/): I didn’t step into the rave community because everything in my life was perfect.
- [To all my friends](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/28/to-all-my-friends/): I am using the Internet fast lane by installing 1.1.1.1 app. It's free and protects me from Internet spies!
- [Do you see the moon..](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/28/do-you-see-the-moon/): If this ever finds you — know this was an intentional call to the moon so you would maybe sense and hear me.
- [Self Love Finally](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/self-love-finally/): I hear how tired you are of feeling separate from your own heart—the ache of watching tenderness bloom for everyone else while your own reflection stays out in the cold.
- [SelfLove…Finally](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/selflovefinally/): I hear how tired you are of feeling separate from your own heart—the ache of watching tenderness bloom for everyone else while your own reflection stays out in the cold.
- [Only the Space Between Our Heartbeats](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/only-the-space-between-our-heartbeats/): Us is not activity. Not status, not noise.
- [Astro something..](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/astro-something/): Two nights ago, I tried something different.
- [Hey you, I see you there](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/hey-you-i-see-you-there-3/): The one pretending you’re fine because it’s easier than explaining the storm.
- [This me](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/this-me/)
- [I’m still here just](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/27/im-still-here-just/)
- [Read This When You’re Grounded](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/26/read-this-when-youre-grounded/): I’ve been thinking about the letter you wrote me.
- [I'll Remember](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/26/ill-remember/)
- [Hey You, I see you there….](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/25/hey-you-i-see-you-there-2/): Orbiting something new.
- [Hey You, I see you there…](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/25/hey-you-i-see-you-there/): You don’t have to pretend with me.
- [The fear of you…](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/the-fear-of-you/): I told myself I misunderstood.
- [Your not safe any more](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/your-not-safe-any-more/): I told myself I misunderstood.
- [I am finally done with you](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/i-am-finally-done-with-you/)
- [Teach me how to love you…](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/teach-me-how-to-love-you/): I want you to teach me how to look at you.
- [Give it Time](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/give-it-time/)
- [Uncharted Constellation](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/uncharted-constellation/): We did not meet as halves.
- [Questions & Truths](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/questions-truths-2/): You 🌙 speak of gravity like it’s something to conquer.
- [Questions & Truths](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/questions-truths/): You 🖤 speak of gravity like it’s something to conquer.
- [Personable Favorite](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/personable-favorite/): You were not my daily dose of dopamine.
- [Cosmic Downloads Ready](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/23/cosmic-downloads-ready/)
- [My Truth...](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/22/my-truth/): I don’t want peace that costs me my voice.
- [Today felt steady....](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/20/today-felt-steady/): He showed up. Face to face.
- [You massage  came through](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/20/you-massage-came-through/): There is so much I want to say, but I’ve gotten it wrong most of my life. I’m sorry that I did not know about this thing.
- [Do Not Rename This Darkness](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/18/do-not-rename-this-darkness/): I live in my head more than I admit.
- [CAN YOU HEAR MY LIGHT..](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/18/can-you-hear-my-light/): I AM NOT ASKING FOR A SIGN.
- [Is it About You](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/18/is-it-about-you/): I’ve been writing for most of my life. Not for clout. Not to be mysterious. Not to impress anyone.
- [About my writing](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/18/about-my-writing/): ’ve been writing for most of my life. Not for clout. Not to be mysterious. Not to impress anyone.
- [Apple on the desk](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/17/apple-on-the-desk/): You practiced silence like a monk practices breath.
- [I Watched a Friend Wake Up and Realized...](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/13/i-watched-a-friend-wake-up-and-realized/): I didn’t notice it at first.
- [To choose love](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/13/to-choose-love/): I need to ask something that makes me cry every time I try to say it.
- [Wish we coud turn back time](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/12/wish-we-coud-turn-back-time/)
- [48 hours of the truth !](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/12/48-hours-of-the-truth/): Any me any question about me and my life and you will get unconditional truth we 48 hours.
- [What I’m trying to say](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/12/what-im-trying-to-say/)
- [Ask me anything](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/11/ask-me-anything/): I come ready strip clean of any mask or act to appear normal. if you have questions and I will do my best to answer with clear commuication.
- [To your existence](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/06/to-your-existence/): I don’t think people get “led out of the darkness” by someone dragging them toward the sun with a rope.
- [With my body](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/06/with-my-body/): fractured starlight fused in night.
- [Do you like my boogie](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/06/do-you-like-my-boogie/)
- [Dear You…](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/06/dear-you/): I keep imagining the version of this story where I don’t hesitate.
- [You say indifference](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/06/you-say-indifference/): I read this and my chest hurts, because what it sounds like isn’t someone trying to trick anyone—it sounds like someone standing at the edge of love, bleeding, asking how much of themselves they have to amputate to be allowed to stay.
- [Hi, Pup C](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/02/06/hi-pup-c/): I don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but I need to get it out of my chest because it’s been sitting heavy in me.
- [Chaos Magik⚡](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/29/chaos-magik%e2%9a%a1/): I do not negotiate with chaos.
- [Loving, for me, has never been accidental.](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/29/loving-for-me-has-never-been-accidental/): It looks reckless from the outside, I know.
- [Pew Pew, the Reckoning](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/28/pew-pew-the-reckoning/): It has escalated.
- [Calling in My Spirit Team — Releasing All Cords That No Longer Serve Me](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/25/calling-in-my-spirit-team-releasing-all-cords-that-no-longer-serve-me/): Tonight I’m intentionally calling in my spirit team, guides, ancestors, higher self, and all loving forces aligned with my highest good.
- [Hello, Moon Child](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/25/hello-moon-child/): What I know now is that my panic attacks werent random. My shutdowns werent me not caring.
- [You’ll know if it’s me](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/25/youll-know-if-its-me/): What I know now is that my panic attacks werent random. My shutdowns werent me not caring.
- [An Unsent Letter](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/25/an-unsent-letter/): I’m writing this because I finally have words I didn’t have then, and because not having them almost broke me.
- [Struggling with guilt and shame after my gay divorce – mental health and late AuDHD diagnosis - male 45](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/20/struggling-with-guilt-and-shame-after-my-gay-divorce-mental-health-and-late-audhd-diagnosis-male-45/): Hey everyone. I’m hoping for some perspective or advice, because I feel really stuck inside my own head. I'm 45 now and relocated to Austin from Orlando.
- [Struggling with guilt and shame after my gay divorce – mental health and late AuDHD diagnosis](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/20/struggling-with-guilt-and-shame-after-my-gay-divorce-mental-health-and-late-audhd-diagnosis/): Hey everyone. I’m hoping for some perspective or advice, because I feel really stuck inside my own head. I'm 45 now and relocated to Austin from Orlando.
- [Pew Pew](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/18/pew-pew/): Alright internet, I need to get something off my chest.
- [Find my meaning, and find me.](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/02/find-my-meaning-and-find-me/): There is a particular kind of joy that only shows up when I stop trying to be impressive.
- [Hey pup!](https://cultofjoey.com/2026/01/02/hey-pup/): I didn’t notice it right away. That’s the strange part. There was no thunderclap, no cinematic beat where the room rearranged itself around a feeling.
- [When Someone Else’s Fantasy Becomes Your Nightmare: Living Under the Weight of Harassment](https://cultofjoey.com/2025/12/10/when-someone-elses-fantasy-becomes-your-nightmare-living-under-the-weight-of-harassment/): Some kinds of horror never announce themselves with footsteps. They slip in quietly, wearing the face of a human being who—at first—seems harmless enough.
- [Home](https://cultofjoey.com/2025/12/01/home/): I’ve spent my whole life hunting for a place that would finally exhale with me.
- [A Poem for the Ones Who Stayed, the Ones Who Left, and the Roads Still Unbuilt](https://cultofjoey.com/2025/12/01/a-poem-for-the-ones-who-stayed-the-ones-who-left-and-the-roads-still-unbuilt/): in ways they never realized.
- [Self love](https://cultofjoey.com/2025/12/01/self-love/): I love you — fully, fiercely, and without condition.
- [Panda….](https://cultofjoey.com/2025/11/29/panda/): I’ve been carrying this for days, and I think it’s finally time to say it — even if you never read it.
- [Where My Story Begins](https://cultofjoey.com/1980/12/16/where-my-story-begins/): The first thing I remember about that world is the feeling of heat pressing against everything.

## Pages

- [Power Exchange](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/power-exchange/): An introduction to negotiated power dynamics, roles, responsibilities, and ongoing consent.
- [Aftercare and Check-ins](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/aftercare-and-check-ins/): How to plan individualized care and communication after an intense experience.
- [Kink Safety and Risk Awareness](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/kink-safety-and-risk-awareness/): A risk-aware approach to preparation, safer practices, equipment, and knowing when to stop.
- [Consent and Negotiation](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/consent-and-negotiation/): A practical guide to discussing wants, boundaries, limits, safewords, and ongoing consent.
- [Kink and BDSM Foundations](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/kink-foundations/): An accessible introduction to kink, BDSM language, roles, interests, and common misconceptions.
- [Kink Resource Center](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/kink-resource-center/): A welcoming, inclusive starting point for learning about kink, BDSM, consent, safety, aftercare, and community.
- [The Gamer](https://cultofjoey.com/the-gamer/)
- [The Adventure](https://cultofjoey.com/the-adventure/)
- [The Singer](https://cultofjoey.com/the-singer/)
- [The Raver](https://cultofjoey.com/the-raver/)
- [Chapter 7: Projects](https://cultofjoey.com/projects/)
- [Chapter 6: Current Era](https://cultofjoey.com/current-era/)
- [Chapter 5: Love](https://cultofjoey.com/love/)
- [Chapter 4: Family](https://cultofjoey.com/family/)
- [Chapter 3: Travel](https://cultofjoey.com/travel/)
- [Chapter 2: Growth](https://cultofjoey.com/growth/)
- [Chapter 1: Origins](https://cultofjoey.com/origins/)
- [PLUR](https://cultofjoey.com/plur/)
- [Support](https://cultofjoey.com/support/)
- [Kink](https://cultofjoey.com/kink/): An inclusive, sex-positive space for adults exploring gay kink and BDSM, consent, communication, safety, power exchange, and community. Find practical guides and resources for curious newcomers and experienced participants alike.
- [Contact](https://cultofjoey.com/contact/)
- [Vault](https://cultofjoey.com/vault/)
- [RV Life](https://cultofjoey.com/rv-life/)
- [Gallery](https://cultofjoey.com/gallery/)
- [Workshops](https://cultofjoey.com/workshops/)
- [Book of Joey](https://cultofjoey.com/book-of-joey/)
- [Home](https://cultofjoey.com/)
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